Struggle - Past - Dec 31st and Jan 1

Enaala mudiyalada paithiyam aagaran unmela... Plsss shy enaku valikuthudaaaa plsss I was over possessive over u... Morning dec 31st elunthan tonight it's our 4th anniversary... Enai epdiyum contact panuvanu oru nambikai shy... The first thing I did was opening my mail box and checking for any of ur mail but oly disappointment... Then I opened fb I typed krish to go to mura profile ur mom name came I saw two mutual friends I got shocked and went in and it was cash who was missing I typed is name in search valikuthaeeeee shyy vaa enkita... It was not there and I typed ur name nothing was shown... I was a bit relaxed went to office calked meena to common system and asked her to type cash name he was there and I was hurt a lot... Then just like tat I typed ur name... My god I saw ur pic I dunno wat to do I was frozen   Enaala onumae pana mudiyala mayakam vanthuchu I saw ur pic shy the one u gave me... And u made it public... My god enaala mudiyala shy enaku solatheriyala... Unakum enakum matumae ula oru private thing it is and atha poi ipadi panitayae nu avlo virakthi kavalai sogam kobam... Yen shy ipadi panna ??? Epdi shy antha pic poi... Then I checked ur timeline it's locked enaku orae kavalaiyaa pochu enalaam poturuka share pani irukanu paarka mudiyala...  Iniyum unnai pirunju iruka koodathunu mudivu paninan amma ku call adichu veetuku varan ma enaku manasu seri ila shy veetuku poi Avala paarthutu vanthudaran ma nu sonan... Then dad spoke ungalukula irukara prachanai pesitu va pa nu sonaru but avanga veetuku porathu seriyaa padalanu sonaru ila nan poitu varanu solitu manager kita gf kuda prachanai I have to leave nu solitu frnd huh office la irunthu railway station la drop pana sonan... He dropped and I missed 3.30 train I checked flight but no vacancy... I was waiting in the station for next 3 hrs and got into 6.10 train and antha 3 hrs en manasu valichathu train la kuthichutaa elaam seri aagidum apadinu avlo ennam... But I badly wanted to c u for the last time... At least nan sethutanaa neeyum sethuduvanu enaku theriyum unaala atha thaangika mudiyaathunu theriyum atha yen naan uyiroda irukarapo seiyamaatara shy... Enkita va shy enkuda pesu neeyum naanum matum elaaraiyum vitutu engayavathu poi santhoshama irukalaam... I took 5k from bank and put it into m bag... I took two hundred rupee ticket general compartment I stepped into sleeper coach unknowingly paid fine... Orae oru laptop bag kondu vanthan... Utkaara edam ila nyt avlo kulir onumae ila cover pana tharaila seat pakathula paduthukitan entha oru koochamum padala enaala kulir thaanga mudiyala... All I wanted is to c u and ask y r u doing this to me... And tell ur family how much I love you... Nan unnai epdi paarthupanu tharailayae morng 8 varaikum thoongaama paduthunu irunthan Kalai meen sarav called me and wished later I called pm twice she dint picked I know something tat u told abt me is making her feel bad abt me... And then elunthu rendu bun and tea vaangi saaptan then oruthavanga upper berth la paduka sonanga they came with two girls nan paduthu lyt huh thoonginan those two girls made a comment like iphone vaangina kaasuku train ticket eduthurukalaamnu :'((( en mind la sathyamaa una thavira Vera ethum odalada and that photo in fb vanthu vanthu pochi... Enaku current huh ipo throat pain echu muzhunga mudiyala valikuthu thondai but itha ezhuthitu thaan i ll try to sleep... Reningunda thiruthani elaa station varapovum ivala inaiku epdiyum paarthuduvome oru nambikai... Sathyamaa unai thavirthu vaazhkaila naan ethukum kankalanginathu ila shy... Then mom called Anna kuptu po sonaanga kobathula oru adi adichaa avanga annan huh thundu thundaa aakiduvan pethavangalo teachers Ohhhh kuda en pula mela Kai vaika vitathula sonaanga nan thappu panalamaa ponna pethavanga panuvaanganu sonan... Then Annan mama kita solli elaarum oru land vishayathula avlo busy nan Unga veetuku poga kudaathu athu thappu nu sonaanga... At least nan oru vaati nerla paarthu pesinaa Ava manasu maaridum urugiduvaanu sonan shy... Phone adichu ketaa unnai love panranu soluvaalaanu ketaanga sathyama soluvaa mama kudavae family mukiyamnu soluvaanu sonan seripaa nee railway station layae iru naanga vanthu kuptukarome nu sonaanga... Annan mama thambi Annan frnds elaarum car eduthunu vanthanga they know abt Micy who is not tat kinda guy who engage in these stuffs and entha prachanaiyum panaathu Nama pula ivlo kashtapaduthae nu anga iruka mudiyaama kelambitaanga.. Then nan park la irunthu velachrry railway station vanthan anga naama ticket vaanginathu nee train la enkai pidichathu... Elaam kanu munaadi vanthu pochu... Ascendas office paarthathum manasu kashtam aachu then car la nee pesinathu potu kaatinaanga... That moment I decided u backed shy.... :'(((((((((( enkita kadaisiyaavathu ethavathu sola sonapo apadi oru Kathu nan katharanan shy enaku mandai kula enavo aachu nee sonathu my god enaku ipovum othuruthu... Aiyoiooo kadavulae... Enna elaarum avlo thapaa paarthaanga... Enaku ethum perusaa padala pondy ponga antha ponna ini nan disturb panalanu solitan... Avlo kashtam epdi en rest of the life irukumnu... Nee ilaatha life jus enaala... Unaku nan padara intha avasthaigal puriyala shy purunjurunthaa en pakathula irupa... Enga kudumbam pathi thapaa soninga shy... Nan ethum solala nee enga mama pesanathum unga annan pesanathum keturupanu nenaikaran elaarukum kashtam kodukaran...ipo nee ilanu 100% theriyum irunthum en mana nimathiku enaikaavathu padipa enkita varuvanu enaku oru nambikai da... Rest f the life unnai matumae nenachu kazhikaporan... Valikuthaeee kadavulae avaluku puriyavainga enkuda serthu vainga... En shy en ammu enaku venum kadavulae... Aiyo shy plssss ena purunjuko en love en pondaati nee venumdaa :(