Current - mar 29

This may be the last post from me to u I don't want to call u by any name... One of my friend called me tonight... I don't want to mention who it is... Asked me about me and my current status... I opened my heart and told still u r the one who is inside me... And how much it's paining and hurting me without you... My friend adviced me a lot and I dint hear anything... I was stubborn u r still the same and u r mine... U know wat enaku oru feel irunthuchu... Nee ithelaam padikara nee inum ena love panra... Enakaaga ethaiyum seiyva apadinu... Enaku theriyala ethanaala enaku apdi thonuchunu... But thonuchu that daily u r reading all these nu... But today u proved tat wrong... Or u r reading evrything am posting here and enjoying my pain...

Nee enaku nala friend huh iruntha, bayantha nama friendship love huh maarumonu ena thali vacha, but love huh maaruchu nama love panome... Nan enayae maranthu unai matumae yosichan, Vera etha pathiyum kavalai padala... Nee vizhuntha... Nanum vizhunthan... Rendu perum elaa limit aiyum thaandinome... Enakaga nee china vishayathuku laam kuda athigam yosichapo kuda nan elaa vishayamum unaku yosikaama nee nenaikaama nee ethir paarkaathapovae senjan... Oru chinna thayakam kuda ilaama elaamae senjan... Unaku theriyum... Unaku elaamae theriyum... Un mela entha korai yum solala it's done... But kadantha 8 months starting from June even from the beginning u lied to me... Chinna chinna vishayathuku kuda... And u started changing... Ipo kuda nee un buthi solrapadi nadakala un manasu solra padi nadakala u know wats wrong and wats right... Naan ivlovum menaketu panrathu elaamae oru chnna vishayathuku thaan naama onu seruvome nu oru nambikai... Ithu ethum kobathula ezhuthala... Anaiku epudi enga appa amma kita ithu yaarum ena force pani edutha mudivu ila ithu naanaa edutha suya mudivunu sonayo athae thaan nanum solran neeyavathu kobathula iruntha apadi pesina... But naan inaioda moonu maasam aaga poguthu thelivaa irunthan elaathaiyum alasi aaraanjan... Ovoru raathariyum oruthara oruthar avlo anuba vachome, manasu vitu athukaprome siruchu pesuvome... Unai nan avlo aravanachan unkita irunthu nan expect panathu elaamae 24 hrs Anbu... And noting else nee enkudavae irukanum till my death ithu matum thaan ethir paarthan kuda iruka mudiyaathu until we get married but at least antha feel kaaga enginan... Ena thavirthu ethulayum naatam seluthaatha enaku nee venum nee enkuda irukara feel kodu 24 hrs pesu ithu matum thaan ketan... Vera ethumae ketkala... But u ditched me seriously u ditched me last June... And athuku apron onu ila rendu ila oru kodi vaati... Nee enaku venum nu oru second vendaamnu oru second... Maru second venum... Evlo dialogues...  Elaamae nambinan nee vendaam solitu ponapovum nambinan enaikum Enai Kai vidamata enaku pidikaathathu panamatanu... Unakaaga nan elathaiyum thooki potan first relatives friends, then en kudumbam kadaisiyaa enga amma elaaraiyum thooki potan unakaaga elaaraiyum... But un kanuku athu theriyavae ila... Nee apo ena venumnu yosicha ipo kuda oru short term alpa santhosham...athukaaga thooki potutu othuritu poita... Ini naan ilanu mudivu panita... Apadiyae irukatum naanum valavalanu athigam pesala... Ivlo naal nee venumnu irunthan even now nee venumnu thaan irukan... But it's high time for me to decide...

The friend I mentioned above asked me to connect online... Nanga rendu perum online connect aanome and my friend shared their desktop screen with me logged into fb... Went into ur profile wowwwwww..... Gave me the control and asked me to see how u got changed... The first thing I scrolled and saw is ur group photo that u shared... Awesome and the first comment that I saw is from vivz and the first person to like it is u.... Wowww am impressed shy am really impressed... U know wat u told me watever it is after knowing tat he is bad u hate him completely and he is never gonna be ur friend... And If u accepted him am sure u would have started speaking with sharon... I have no prob enaku iruntha konja Nyanja nambikaiyum udachu thooki pota nee nenacha ponnu naan ila nanum apadi thaanu u proved... I have no heart to click on ur profile pic... Athula avan avan poturuka comment paarthu nan saaga virumbala... Jus scroll panan wowww enalaam pani irukinga epudi elaam life enjoy panranu paarthan enaku kobam ila... Nee epavum ivlo santhoshama iru ini unnai disturb panala... I saw the events I hope u went to that event with cash... May be with ur colleague and new frnds... Also saw ur may be on sakthilashmi's marriage event... Athuku mela enaala paarka mudiyala I asked to close then i ended up the call through which we got connected... Un friend list kuda poi paarkala... I don't want to see few names that I regret to see as ur friend... Ena kadupethanumnu nan verukara chinna vishayam kuda pani iruka maatanu nambaran... Harry sonapo kuda nan nambala tat u told him tat u started speaking with vivz... Enaku etha pathiyum ini kavalai ila nee maarita... And nan unaku vendaamunu enaku clear huh prove panita.. Nan en vazhi paarthunu pogaran... Nan neraya iruku sola but elaamae waste ena nan prove pananum unkitanu ini avasiyam ila... Unaku venungratha panu... Jus fb nu oru vishayam ilanaa nama life epudi irunthurkumnu yosichu paaru...

Before leaving nan oru chinna vishayam and one last try pana virupa padaran... 

Read this...

Possessiveness comes when there is a fear of losing a loved one...

And not becos they don't trust u...

But becos they can't imagine a life without u...

I was all alone here leaving u there... Enaku theriyum parents friends elaathukum mela nan virumbina ponnu elaariyum vitutu inga irunthathu enaku theriyum...

Nan athigam pesala am really really sorry... After going through ur fb and the things that I have heard from my friend... Am very sure am no more into ur life... I know Monday morng the first thing u do ll be reading this post and its 31st...

If u really love me... If u really want me in ur life... If u really trust me... If u think am a righteous person... If u die to live with me the rest of ur life... Without any hesitation etha pathiyum yosikaama contact me before April 15... Am giving u solid 15 days... I don't want to beg... En manasula irukarathum solran... Intha nodi vara unnai thavara Vera inoruthavala kanavo nenavo iravo plagal I nan nenachathila... Unkita thaan nan ena elaa vagayulum ezhanthan... Unakaaga thaan nan elaam ezhanthan... It's upto u now... Unnai pirunju nan pata kodumaiyaana vali enaku matum thaan theriyum.. Nan pata oru second avasthaiya kuda nee enkuda adutha 7 life irunthaalum thirupi thara mudiyaathu...

And I promise u... On or before April 15th enaku call oh msg oh mail oh ila yaar muliyamaavo etho oru vagayula... Jus one thing... "I still love u, wait for me, I promise u we will be together" itha convey panidu this is wat I like to hear from u... If not nan unnai muzhusaa azhuchitu en life paarka aarambichudarab... And the promise... Ithu varaikum nee ena entha vishayathukum nambinathu ila but I ll never break my promise... Nee ena contact panatha nan engayum epavum yaarkitayum solamatan... Entha santharpathulayum... Jus a text or mail or call or thru someone convey these lines.... Vanthaa elaa valiyum poruthunu wait panran... Varalanaa ini un vaazhkaila Ena pathi oru vishayam unaku theriyaathu... Entha santharpathulayum unnai disturb pana maatan neeyaa nenachaa kuda... Sathyamaa solran neeyaa April 15 apron nenachaa kuda nama sera mudiyaathu... Nan evlo getikaaranu unaku theriyaathu...

I always loved, loving and will love u...

I also was running behind u the from the first day I met u, but now am done it's upto u to decide whether u want me to run behind u... Or away from u... Am prepared for both... Nee yes sonaalum ok no sonaalum ok... Make the ryt decision and stick to it... Nee entha alavuku othuritu maaritanu enaku inaiku purunjuthu... Jus kaasu panam caste elaam ipo vanthathu... See the love tat we had before all these... U decide... With lots of expectations from u... Bye...